so tired.

blahhhhhhhhhh
im so tired.
so yesterday church was good. and then i came home and did nothing and then got ready for the softball game :]]] WOOT WOOT. that was funnn great times great times. so i think im coming to the game tonight. aunt didi is coming to get me :] and then going to the game :]]] yay cheerleading alllllllllllllll week from 4-8 :[[[ and on tuesday im watching patrick at 905 :] im going to be exahusted[sp] blahh so idk. girls were going to ralph it up soon at the beach :]]] yay yeah girl. haha wow so idk what else to write this is relativly short. no short books today :] so
just keep praying for each other :]

so tired.

blahhhhhhhhhh
im so tired.
so yesterday church was good. and then i came home and did nothing and then got ready for the softball game :]]] WOOT WOOT. that was funnn great times great times. so i think im coming to the game tonight. aunt didi is coming to get me :] and then going to the game :]]] yay cheerleading alllllllllllllll week from 4-8 :[[[ and on tuesday im watching patrick at 905 :] im going to be exahusted[sp] blahh so idk. girls were going to ralph it up soon at the beach :]]] yay yeah girl. haha wow so idk what else to write this is relativly short. no short books today :] so
just keep praying for each other :]

wow i finally have a life.

heyyy people :] so i just got back from danielles a bit ago. lets replay my week. monday i had cheerleading from 830-10 UGHH and then i hit the mall :] with my mom :[ yeah and then tuesday i had cheerleading again from 830-10 and then i came home and slept till 3 wow. and then i babysat patrick at sand volleyball. which is always fun :] he cracks me up and then i came home and fell asleep so i could get up and go to cheerleading again from yep you guessed it 830-10 and then i came home and did NOTHING. and i went to small group and watched them and they were extra monsterous[yes i made that up] and i thought i wasnt going to make it. ugh. and then i came home and slept so i could sleep bc yes i had cheerleading again.from 830-10 UGH and then i came home and then around 6 danielle came over :]]]] we had a partyy and did nothing really. and then got up in the morning around oh idk 957 and danielles mom called AH. and then we got ready and went and had lunch with PH at church :] always a treat and then we attempted to walk to her g-mas house to swim and got lost in the field and scared by a big dog and after we were alll the way back there we decided to walk the street. but i have to say we made excellent timing. 10 min. to be exact. but who was counting. so we swam for a wee bit. and then we went to danielles casa and then to small group. :] fun fun fun. then back to danielles casa where we stayed all night. and then in the am we got up and went to the yard sale at nieces. :] and then we ate pizza went back to danielles and watched this show with this exotic dancer HAH danielle. and then around 3 i left and i went to walmart and then i came home and now im here. church in the AM :]]]]]]]]] cant wait.


so heres something im stuggling with.
i have a friend and i feel shes coming to church for the wrong reasons like oh idk her boyfriend and i am struggling with the thought of bringing her if i know its for the wrong reasons. and idk ive prayed about it and i asked my mom about it and idk i just need some extrerior advice. so help me :]

i love you alll

hmm.

so. today i had cheerleading NO FUN. from 830-10. erg. no fun. but i did it and then i came home and watched charmed EEK. and then i slept from 12-3 and now i guess were going to the mall. idk. so sunday was amazing. i came to church in a horrible mood HORRIBLE. and then in service what LJ said really hit me and i was thinking about going up but i was soo scared and then when tam told me she would go with me i was like ok this is my chance. so i went up and i was sooo scared. when i hugged alicia i dont think i was going to let go. and then i held on to tam soo tight i was so nervous. but i did it and i couldnt be happier :] THANK YOU TAM rededicating my life was the best thing since CIY. im so glad i did it. well on saturday i had a small melt down. ok so it wasnt that small. but thats ok. im over it now. well idk but im going to go. im going shopping :] yeahhh girl.

danielle= lunch this week??? let me know.

im outt

I LOVE YOU ALLLL

woot.

howdy all. today was AMAZING. yesterday not so much.lets start with thursday. i got up at 930 and i went to breakfast at BK. hahahaha then I ACTUALLY WENT CANOEING. i know its hard to believe. but i have the bruises to prove i went. it was ok. i didnt like the whole getting pushed or falling outta the boat but i had fun chillin on the river with diaz. i felt a little outta place though. bc me being the preppy girl i am. out in the middle of the river just wasnt right. but any way i went. and i was a little intimidated but its all good. i lived and i will never go again. haha jk idk. so then i went back to marissas and we chilled and watched shes the man. then we went to zachary's house. wow you wouldnt understand what happened there.such a good movie. then in the morning i went home at like 2. and this begins the horrible day of friday. well i had some "stuff" issues. you all get my point. and i was in a horrible mood. all i wanted was some midol some sleep and some chocolate. but instead my parents and the sarneckis drug me to the beach. i was not thrilled to be there at all. i just wanted to go home. and then it started lightening and we had to get outta the water. so we sat there IN THE RAIN MIGHT I ADD and ate the sorry excuse for pizza. sorry em. but its nasty. then i came home and i showered and i got all warm in my hoodie [CIY HOODIE] and my sweats and i sat outside in the rain and cried my eyes out. what can i say PMS. alot of things i just needed to let go of and get out. it was nice. so then it stopped raining and i wasnt done venting. so i got out a pen and some paper and i started drawing. ive noticed my art is better when im upset. so i drew for like 3 hours. and then i laid in my bed and cried some more. and some more. im so emotional. idk why i cried so much. i think its bc i miss calvin more than you all can imagine. i know you all dont care. but wow he means so much to me. and idk it hurts that he lives so far away. and then we get to today. i got up at 10! not normal. but i watched charmed and laid around untill like 130 and then i went to diaz's. we went to mc donalds and then we went to walgreens and then home. and she straightened my hair and we watched aqua marie or something cute movie. then we sat around and then i went to my cousins sweet 16. wow i miss them so much.i havent seen my cousins in 2.5 years. my family was in a fued since my grams died. so we fixed it and it was so nice to be able to see them. i love my cousins. and my aunt tina. haha wow. well idk but tomorrow we have church :] cant wait. woot woot. then impact. wooooot. and then monday the torture of cheerleading starts again. 830-10 of pure torture. some of the crap we do could be classified as cruel and unusual punishment. erg. well i think ive updated you all enough. so leave comments and i will talk to you all soon.

i love you all :]]]]

DQ

my life is good :]

well ive realized that i write in here too much. haha but oh well.

so i fixed the not being treated the same ordeal. i think its all going to be good now. :] well idk today is the aniversary of adam leaving. :[ i miss him. alot. but thats just me. well things are going good lately. calvin has been calling me everynight :]]]]]] im fixing things with zach :]]] im getting closer to my friends. especially em. :] yay. cheerleading is going good. but its kicking my butt.

today all i did was cheerleading :][ not quite sure if im going to be sore tomorrow or not :] well im getting bored and running outta things to say.

Sometimes things ; just dont work out.

The girl who seemed unbreakable ;; broke.

The girl who seemed so strong ;;crumbled.

The girl who always laughed it off ;; cried.

&& the girl who never stopped trying ;; quit.

i know this hurts...it was meant to

& he said "i'll love you forever."

and she smiled & said.

"just warn me when forever starts to end."

Wait for the boy who will drop everything for you at any time of the day just to see you

.Wait for the boy that will make anordinary moment seem magical.

Wait for the boy that you can't helpbut smile when you see, and when he smiles,you know he needs you.

Wait for the boy who will be your best friend.

The one who wants to show you off to the worldeven in your sweats with no make up...

but most of all,

wait for the boy who will put youin the center of the universe,

because he is obviously the center of yours.

&&im the girl who

will burst out laughing

in absolute dead

silence because of

something that happened

the day before

love his cute little comments..

the way he makes me laugh..

the way he's always there,

and the way he knows how to get my heart..& it makes me wonder, why is he so perfect?

hmmmm sometimes i wonder...

old memories

so im not sure why but some old memories have been flaring up lately. i think since the 3 year mark on adam leaving is coming up tomorrow. i just i realize how much i miss those guys. DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVE OUR GROUP. but i really miss him and all those guys. we had such a blast and we have fun too i know but there is a place in my heart that just wont be filled. i really miss it. i love our group and im not trying to say oh i liked adam better or trying to compare them but i just i miss it. and i really just wish things would of been different bc i wanted those guys to experience all this with us. but i love our youth group. idk. this is one change i dont think i can ever really grasp. but it was all for the greater good....i guess. i miss them. alot.

on to my next point.

im tired of being treated differently. there are some people that treat me like crap and like im not able to change and that im some horrible kid. i wasnt that bad off to begin with and now im better. im not saying i didnt have faults but some people treat me like im going straight to hell. and im just so offended because its going to get harder than this. im aware of that and i dont have the support from some important people in my life and it makes me feel horrible. because sometimes i wonder if i can do it. i feel horrible because of this and i feel like im complaining. but im tired of being treated different than all of you. im just as good and just as bad as all of you and im treated like im satin himself. idk. im just sick of being treated less than the rest of you... some of you might not understand but then some of you do.

well im done drowning in self pity now.

i miss CIY alot. its getting worse each day. :[ only 350 days baby.

cheerleading is a killer. im such a baby. only two more days :] and hopefully on thursday im going to the fair with em. :]] EEK. cant wait baby. well im out. i have some important people to call and some decisions to make and some thoughts to process. :[ :]

kaylaout :] haha more very soon.

sunday afternoon.

so this weather is NUTS. haha so its sunday afternoon. and once again im doing nothing. church was fun. the sermon about change was challenging. so i was going to go to KI but its so hott. so im staying here. haha well. idk im trying really hard to prove that im a chagned person to the world. its easy for now but i know its going to get harder. i miss CIY it was so easy to stick to the plan there. its like when your there there is a protective layer around you and the devil cant get in. and now it seems like hes everywhere. i miss it. CIY is the perfect life. ok enough about CIY. VBS was fun. i will miss it. i made a new best friend. Jen. chips jen. shes something else. ha well cheerleading starts this week. ehh mixed feelings about that one. im excited bc i love it and i will have something to do but the fact of getting up at 8 everday and working out till 4 is a killer. oh well i will deal. well. i guess im out. i will update later i guess.

missing [c][i][y]

WOOT.

so i cant write too much.
VBS was great. last night was okay. could be better. but its all the devil and im going to stop that :]] so i mis CIY pretty bad. NOT JUST BECAUSE OF JOHNNY EITHER. its all easier there and i miss it. so tonight you all are going to the Reds Game and im babysitting alicias kids. im not upset by that i love to watch her kids they are like my little siblings. :] but im sad ill miss out on seeing all of you. so sunday is the big day :]] marissas coming back with me so YEAHH GIRLL. i am doing what im supposed to be doing :]]] well i have to go do some stuff before i babysitt.
i cant wait to worship with all of you :]]]

as danielle said...

kaylaout. :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

This Week.

heyy girls. wow so VBS is fun. im super bored blahh. IM HAVING SERIOUS WITHDRAWLS FROM CIY. like no joke. im dying. i miss rocking out with FR all day and being with you all in the presence of God. but i do lovee telling people about Jesus. my friends complete strangers whom ever. i do not care. i need to tell someone. :] i love it. well i will see most of you tonight

355 days till CIY 07 :] WOOT WOOT

CIY 06

WOW. CIY was amazing. i dont know how else to say it. the worship was BEYOND amazing. the encounters were outstanding. and beyond all it changed my life forever. my life wasnt where it neede to be be and this week set it straight. Johnny did an amazing job :]] he is the greatest worship leader ever. :]]] wow and Foundation Red is my FAVORITE band of all time now :] ive gained so much respect for all of them. lets say with out their music i wount be at the place im in spiritually. i love them so much. CIY did an amazing job and i would go back in a heartbeat. i cannot wait till next year :]]]

wow i love CIY
only 359 days till we go again ladies. :]

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