Tuesday, January 30, 2007

mellowness.

so i have nothingggg to say.
lifes mellow kinda right now.
cheerleading drama but when isnt there.
im content with being boyless for the first time in my life
and im almost positive ive moved on this time :]]]]]] yay.
i cannot wait for winter jam on saturday. i hope i can go. wooooooooo hoooooooo.
alright im outt.
<3

Friday, January 19, 2007

quotes.

im in a quote mood.
this first one is for my girls..
Ricky: Dear Lord baby Jesus, we thank you so much for this bountiful harvest of Dominos, KFC, and the always delicious Taco Bell. I just want to take time to say thank you for my family. My two sons, Walker, and Texas Ranger, or TR as wse call him. And of course my red hot smokin' wife Carley, who is a stone cold fox.
--talladega nights: the ballad of ricky bobby
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you taught me many things like
how it feels to miss someone so bad
it feels like a part of you is missing
i can tell you one thing now that you're gone
i will never forget you
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i can't want this anymore--wicked
---
drama, emotion, changes, tears, broken heartsand
these are supposed to be the best years of our lives?
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theres nothing in the world likethe deep breaths and sore stomachs
after laughing really hard with yourbest friends <3
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she finally gave up..she droppedthe fake smile,
as a tear rolled
down her cheek and she whispered
to herself "i cant do this anymore"
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There are just certain people who
aren't meant to fit in your life, no
matter how badly you want them to.
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She`s one of those girls that has tons of make-up. She loads it on cause she hates who she is. She can laugh at anything, cause it`s easier to fake it then actually mean it. She'll tell you that she's perfectly fine when she`s falling apart inside & she just wants someone to reach out & say "You`re not okay."
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i agree with the dictionary;
girls before guys -
-partying before studying& friends before love.
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here's to the guys who love us,
the losers who left us,
and thelucky ones who get to meet us.
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Real girls arent perfect & perfect girls arent real.
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forget you, sounds good.
forgive you, not so much.
---
silly girl,
you believed him.
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Never make someone your priority
when to them, your only an option.
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After awhile, you get sick of caring and your too hurt to fight.
Sometimes no matter what you do, things wont be alright.
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What doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.
So when you think your hurting me, your just helping me last longer.
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Peter: Don't you understand, Tink?
You mean more to me than anything in this whole world!
--peter pan
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Landon: "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and is not resentful."
--a walk to remember
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we're all a little weird,
and when we find those people whos weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them and fall into a mutually satisfying weirdness
&& call them our bestfriends
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Do not look back and grieve over the pastfor it is gone;
and do not be troubled about the future,for it has not yet come.
Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
-one tree hill
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The people that are still with you at the end of the day
Those are the ones worth keeping
-grey's anatomy
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And when you forget her, don't
you dare remember me
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Because unlike you I meant everything I said.
Unlike you I've always been honest. Unlike you, I actually cared.
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please take a bow, hear the applause?
my heart is b r o k e n & you're the cause.
i played the game, & it looks like you've won.
congratulations player, hope you've had fun.
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the hardest part is acting like you dont care
when you know how much you really do
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i want all of you, foreveryou and me, everyday
--the notebook
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you were a mistake that lasted too long
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Brooke: There are 82 letters in here, and they're all addressed to you. I wrote them all this summer. One a day, but I never sent them 'cause I was afraid.
Lucas Scott: Brooke...
Brooke: I was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. 'Cause you hurt me so bad, and I was afraid to be vulnerable. And I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel. And I know that doesn't matter now after what I did, but I just thought that you should know. This was how I spent my summer, Luke, wanting you... I'm just too scared to admit it.
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thats all for today.
iloveyouall

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

lies and hypocricy.

first off..
congrats tam & jesse and family.
jackson cooper is finally here. :]
cant wait to see him.
now..
lies.
im over them. be honest. the truth always comes out. :]
deal with it. honestly this whole i lie then lie again to cover it. its getting annoying.
dont lie because you think its going to make it better. it never does.
hypocricy.
wow.
okay. dont say one thing if you mean another
people arnt dumb. we see it.
seriously get over your self. its not all about you and what you want.
your not happy untill someones hurt.
:[
the end.
im hurting. and its lame

Monday, January 15, 2007

pure.

pure;;
my word to describe pure is...
a way out;;or help.
so. it was really comforting to know im not alone. and that God isnt mad at me.
ive asked for forgivness and i know Gods forgiven me for it all.
i have a blank slate. kinda. and im not messing it up all for a guy.
calvin is done. i told him and ill tell anyone else. that i love him. dearly. but i have to do whats right for me first and then worry about "us" if there is time. and i feel good about that decision. i do love him to death and i want to be good friends but ive got to focus on myself before i can devote all my time to him. i have to love myself first.
i know youve all been saying this to me for somewhile now. and then hilary talked about it at pure and i guess i realized its the truth because she didnt even know my issue and she said the same thing. i cant wait to get to know her.
it was also really hard for me.
i had alot to face that night. ive fallen off the right track lately. and made bad choices.
&&
the last overnighter is when i met calvin. and it was hard because alot of things reminded me of him and it kinda took me back and made me cry everytime i remembered something. but its okay now.
lifes tough.
here are some verses i like.
Above all guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life.
-proverbs 4:23.
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will alson provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
-1 corinthians 10:13.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
-Matthew 6:34.
two songs that touched me as well. haha.
But what if you’re wrong?What if there’s more?What if there’s hope you never dreamed of hoping for?What if you jump?And just close your eyes?What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?What if He’s more than enough?What if it’s love?
^-> what if;;nicole nordeman.
To everyone who's hurtingTo those who've had enoughTo all the undeservingThat should cover all of usPlease do not let goI promise there is hopeHold fastHelp is on the wayHold fastHe's come to save the dayWhat I've learned in my lifeOne thing greater than my strifeIs His graspSo hold fast
^-> hold fast;;mercy me.
thats all i guess.
iloveyouall.
tam i missed you at pure. hope your okay.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

life.

lifes...pretty..lame.
actually.
im kinda mad.
calvin = d o n e . wowwww hes gay.
butt. the newest crush is kinda lame. but thats okay because im not really looking for a relationship. but i feel like im not going to find a good guy. every guy i meet hasa gf and leads me on because they think ill give them something but then turn around and get a girlfriend. its old. im done with boys but at the same time im still missing calvin. :[ but i dont want him back but it still hurts. idk its odd. schools out for a few days. ;] pure this weekend. i need it. badly. tam im sad you wont be there :[ good luck with the baby i hope he comes soon :]]] but yeahh.
lifes kinda lame right now. idk.
see ya'll this weekend.

Monday, January 01, 2007

:[[ it hurts.

Lord, grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference.
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You break my heart into a thousand pieces;;
&&tell me its because i deserve better?
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its hard to wait around for something thta you know might never happen,
but its even harder to give up when you know its everything u want
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its not that i dont like you, because oh beleive me i do,
im just to tired to compete for you, when im never going to win
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Guy: yeah i dont care what anyone thinks of me
girl: anyone???
guy: dont worry baby, your not just anyone, your the one
[[HAHAHA right.ive heard that before.]]
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Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take
but by the moments that take our breath away
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Promises are just lies with pretty ribbons tied to them.
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My parents always told me to enjoy life now because when i grow up, I'll have to do the hard things......like pay bills and work; But for some reason that sounds so much better than broken hearts and shattered dreams.
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Giving up doen't always mean your weak,
Sometimes it means you're strong enought to let go.......
[:[[ ]
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she's telling everyone lies about how she feels inside.
she can't stand the way things are now.
she only wants it all to change.
what he doesn't know is how much she truly cared
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No matter how hard she tried,
she couldn't hold back the tears any longer.
----
& he said "i'll love you forever."
and she smiled & said."just warn me when forever starts to end."
:[
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Everyones always telling me to just get over you and move on;
obviously they just don't understand just how hard I've already tried.
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when two people are meant for each other
no time is too long
no distance is too far
and nobody can tear them apart
[i wish]
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and it feels like everythings falling apart;let it fall
maybe its Gods way of saying its not meant to be
[thehorsewhisperer]
[ hm. :[ ]
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I’m not mad because she’s going out with you.
I’m mad because that could’ve been me
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the (smile) on my face is so fake,
even BaRBiE is jealous
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When the world told her to smile, she told the world to give her a reason to.
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please just get out of my head.
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they send you to school for 12 years
and the one thing they dont teach you is how to say goodbye.
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(define)goodbye;
(goo-ed bbyy) the one word in the english language that hurts the most.
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i guess thats that. same old story.
guy meets girl, finds the way to her heart actually convinces her he loves her
then leaves her for someone else
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I try to make it go away, but I remember everything
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so i was an idiot and i fell for it again. but thats okay because this time im going to try and realllllly let go. im sorry for not listening to you all. you were right and now im hurt and upset and i feel horrible.