i would just like to say...

that today is THE WORST day of my life and it sucked..lets just list a few things that happened...

-- i wake up LATE.

--i broke a nail on my locker.

--i spilt coffee all over me and everything else.

--my eyes dried out and i couldnt see anything...in the middle of my test might i add.

--my flip flop...broke.

--i left my purse at the lunch table.

--i forgot my math homeowork.

-- i was LATE to lawlers class

--we had a freaking fire drill. and its six million degrees outside.

--my cheerleading coach yelled at me and told my mom " i didnt do anything right and i was mouthy" i was like oh are you kidding.

--i got into a fight with mycoach and started crying.

--im about [_]--->this close to quitting her squad.

--my mom came late to get me.

--and now im home with nothing to eat. and i have 7 hours of hw to do.

--andddddddddddd my cell phone got turned off today. OH YAY.

ughh i hate my life on days like today.

memories.

memories. are good and bad. lately ive been forced to face memories. some i want to and some i dont. i feel like im saying good bye to everyone. but thats besides the point. so lets see. cheerleading school and homework are my life now. JOY JOY. ha not so much. um saturday JV football kicked serious butt 34-0 against northwest :] yeah boys. and varsity won 14-7 :] yeah boyss. first home game for varsity is friday @ 700-730ish so come out and see us :} woo hoo. ok so um today it rained. badly. and it sucked bc i was wet all day. :[ no le gusta. so im taking french and i am going to say i am quite good at it :] yay me. ok so i didnt get to go camping which made me very mad. :[ gr. so sunday wow. i missed church :[[ shame shame i know. and then brads thing. wow. crazyness. as much as i hate to admit it. i cried. :[ and as much as i said i wouldnt im going to miss him alot more than i show. it wont be the same with out our figi. :[ we will miss you figi. you better blogspot it up. all the time. well back to mybiology homework for now. i have a test tomorrow :[[ hmm.
I LOVE YOU ALL MORE THAN I TELL YOU.

:]]]

wow. so lifes good. yesterday was amazzzzinggg :] so i got up at 715 and got ready. and i had cheerleading practice up at the track [ ewww ] from 830-10 but we left at 945 so we could get ready for pictures. so i went to the bathroom and got dressed which was not fun. and then i got my picture taken which only took six million hours. and then i got my schedule and then we hit the road. an hour late might i add. so we stopped and got PEANUT :] and then we went to wendys :]]]] and got lunch and then took it to the beach and ate it outside YEAH GIRL. and then we went in and we couldnt find a chair. ughhh and then we found one and we got started right away. we went to the snake ride and i was verrrryy hesitant to get on it and the first time i didnt bc hoss is a baby and wouldnt go. and a two person ride doesnt work with one or three people so yeah and then we went to the rapids :]]] fun fun fun ness. and then we went to the wave pool where i almost drownnnn haha and we did chin ups on the bar haha. wow and then i rode the snake ride. oh wowww i loved it. i rode it twice in a row haha :] yay. and then we clowned around. ahha and then yeah i got a tatoo WHICH MIGHT I ADD IS NOW GONE ERGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG and yeah and then we left :[[[[[[[ muyy triste. so yeah im sooooooooooo sunburnttt. cripsyy girl. and then yeah i came home and did nothing. ahhh i loved hanging out with you all. I LOVE YOU GIRLSSS. yeah so saturday babysitting 12-6 then symmes fest then didis i guess. and then church and then monday im getting my nails done :]] my hair cuttt [maybe] :]] and then maybe KI idk though. then tuesday = day ive been dreading all summer. school.

so yeah tonight i think im hanging out with my cousin i havent seen in 2.5 years. :]]]]]]]]]]] i cannot wait i miss her sooo much so wish me luck that it goes well :]


kayla ray*

goodbye summer :[

so. summer is coming to an end... and its finally sinking in. so heres my past few days and the next few days in advance. thursday i went to the doctor and found out i had a contagious respitory cough YAY RIGHT?? haha but they gave me a shot and im good to go now :] yay. but anyway friday i got up and went to cheerleading pictures yayy and then i came home and slept off some med. and then i went to see john tucker must die with em :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] best movie ever + best friend = amazzzing time :] so glad we did that and then we went to the movie night at church which was fun me and em = totally hyper and boucing off the walls. haha wow. and then yeah saturday i babysat kaitlin from 11-1 and then came home slept and then babysat patrick from 7-11 i lovee babysitting him. hes adorableee :] then sunday i went to church. went to the picnic and all that jazz and then i went to SMOY fest with my favorite people ever. after spending the afternoon with them :] ha. and then monday i spent the night at marissas and came home cleaned made a sign and then went to meet the team :]] fun fun not. then today i had cheerleading 830-10 :]] not. and then i came home and now im updating and then im babysitting patrick at 745 :] yayyyy then in the morning. no cheerleading :] but im watching jason brown at 1045 oh yayyyy not. and then i have small group and i need to clean my room in between there. ahha and then thursday i have cheerleading going to try and fit in my schedule pick up and then head to the beach with you all. :] friday possibly getting schedule and then symmes fest CALL IF YOU WANNA GO :] and then saturday babysitting with jacky 12-6 yeahh girl. fiesta. and then symmes fest unless something more intreaging comes up :] then sunday church :]] yay.

em--have fun on vacation. ill miss you terribly. ill callyou daily babe.

the rest of you. well illsee you around

I LOVE YOU ALLL :]

i need to vent

ok so im venting so if you dont wanna read it then leave because im going to vent for the last time and then i will be done.
ok i dont know why it bothers me soo much but it does. they just met eachother and now they act like they have known each other forever. and its so annoying because its all i hear about. my girlfriend...my boyfriend. i just wanna scream. ughhhhhhhh ok. i know its not my business and i should have let it go a while ago but i cant. its so annoying. and its not because i still like him because its not that at all. its more because...THEY JUST MET EACH OTHER. and the fact that my school life and my church life are combining. like i know that this is what i wanted. like ive always wanted the two places i am most to be one. but i mean..i was going to take church to school not school to church. and i didnt want it to happen by one of them dating the other. its like they are everywhere. and now its like its her church now. and im like hello. but i know God wants her there and God will work through him to get to her. but its not like hes being a good example of christ. but i mean. idk. and the fact that God wants her there is the ONLY reason im still bringing her. i know i have the wrong attitude about this but i cannot help it. it just makes me fume at the ears.

my life has more stress than i can handle in it right now and i have to deal with this. and its so annyoing.
so right now. im really sick. and it sucks. i have some word i cannot say bc its so weird. its a respitory infection :] yay. not. im on meds and should be better by sunday or monday. ughh it sucks. IM NOT SUPPOSED TO USE MY VOICE. which is really nice since thats how i express my self and im a cheerleader and im supposed to talk as little as possible. erg. and i feel like im going to throw up at all hours of the day. ughhh i just wanna be better. and the fact that tons of crap is going wrong in my life is just the icing on the cake. :] yay.
ok im done being negative. im going to go lay down. i guess ill see ya'll sooner or later...
danielle i miss you already girl :[[[[ we need to do something about this georgetown thing hah. jkk sorta..

kayla out.

i adore my friends.

my friends [ aka all of you ] are the most amazing people ever. this weekend was amazing. haha started out on saturday getting up earlier than i should have and going to the "carwash" NOT SO MUCH PH. and we all wored our butts off. actually you all worked and i did something that was a sad excuse for work :] but you all still love me. working just isnt my thing. anyway. then we went out with didi to the hOtel. to the holiday inn which was booked then back to the other side of town to " Kings Luxuary Inn" not as luxurious as it sounds. it made double tree look really good. but thats ok bc its all part of the experience. i loved it. that pool was pretty badly dirty. but i loved it. i loved it all. and the best part was i learned to do a hand stand. haha YAY ME? hah wow. ok so moving forward. on tothe evening. walking to steak and shake and seeing my lovely friends. haha not so lovely. nick and em almost getting into it. haha wow. wow what would we do with out MOM? haha yay i love her. so anyway then going night swimming :]]]] yeah girl. so many insiders[which are to come] then sunday getting up and going to church. im not going to lie church wasnt that great for me. i spent the whole morning crying. buttttt then we all went to ems. wowww i love her. that was the most amazing time ever. except for the little problem i came to realize. haha but that didnt stop us from having fun. wow i love you girls and its so wierd not being with you now.

now to the insiders....
Me standing in the middle of the pool " this spot seems a little...wet"
i think i have a hole in my nose...
Hoss- guys....they are s m o k i n g .
haha
emily. ive never seen it like that before.
what are the doing? they are going to do IT.
haah
the hOtel and the Tv. haha stressing the wrong sylllaable.
MOM MOM MOM .
no its only like the 5th!
J JOHNNNNYYY.
haha wow. i know there are more that im missing but this is good for now. add more to my comments that i missed..
i love you all and i miss you dearly.
and i miss CIY real bad.

o v e r t i r e d is an understatment.

ok. so cheerleading is abnormal. its killing me. its from 4-8 pm all this week and then at 830-10 am. every morning till the end of summer pretty much. i am about to loose my mind. o v e r t i r e d is an understatment. im running on empty. but im managing. because of cheerleading im missing babysitting jobs left and right and thats where my money comes from. but thats ok because im getting a job :[ yo no le gusta. so my home life is getting difficult. i feel like im always being stepped on and getting no respect. all i do is clean and do laundry like im a house wife. i dont ask for much but to go out every now and then and im always here being CINDERELLA. and ive had enough. my parents are constantly fighting. its outrageous. i just wanna move out sometimes. run away.. far far away. so tonight i think my dad left. he got all his uniforms and got on my uncles motercycle and im thinking he left. for good. but i could be wrong. idk what im going to do i cant handle any of this. i just wanna crawl under a rock and die. my mom is so over worked and not treated any where near the way she should be but living a life with out both my parents around especially at this point in my life idk how i will make it. so much is going wrong in my life i just want it all to end. when is it going to end seriously for real. i cant take it anymore. please God end this ngihtmare. please real bad.