pure.

pure;;

my word to describe pure is...

a way out;;or help.

so. it was really comforting to know im not alone. and that God isnt mad at me.

ive asked for forgivness and i know Gods forgiven me for it all.

i have a blank slate. kinda. and im not messing it up all for a guy.

calvin is done. i told him and ill tell anyone else. that i love him. dearly. but i have to do whats right for me first and then worry about "us" if there is time. and i feel good about that decision. i do love him to death and i want to be good friends but ive got to focus on myself before i can devote all my time to him. i have to love myself first.

i know youve all been saying this to me for somewhile now. and then hilary talked about it at pure and i guess i realized its the truth because she didnt even know my issue and she said the same thing. i cant wait to get to know her.

it was also really hard for me.

i had alot to face that night. ive fallen off the right track lately. and made bad choices.

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the last overnighter is when i met calvin. and it was hard because alot of things reminded me of him and it kinda took me back and made me cry everytime i remembered something. but its okay now.

lifes tough.

here are some verses i like.

Above all guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life.

-proverbs 4:23.

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will alson provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

-1 corinthians 10:13.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

-Matthew 6:34.

two songs that touched me as well. haha.

But what if you’re wrong?What if there’s more?What if there’s hope you never dreamed of hoping for?What if you jump?And just close your eyes?What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?What if He’s more than enough?What if it’s love?

^-> what if;;nicole nordeman.

To everyone who's hurtingTo those who've had enoughTo all the undeservingThat should cover all of usPlease do not let goI promise there is hopeHold fastHelp is on the wayHold fastHe's come to save the dayWhat I've learned in my lifeOne thing greater than my strifeIs His graspSo hold fast

^-> hold fast;;mercy me.

thats all i guess.

iloveyouall.

tam i missed you at pure. hope your okay.