jealousy.

when i put "jealous" into the dictionary.com this is the definition it gave:

Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.

hm. that isnt a better def. for what im feeling right now.

im being eat away at by my own jealousy.

im not sure why im jealous.

i know who im jealous of. but i dont know why im jealous of it.

its petty. and middle school.

but. i am. and im dying of it.

its killing me.

plus, im keeping a huge secret thats not ready to come out so, dont ask.

its like locked inside me.

ugh. im going to explode from jealousy and secrets.

secrets. ugh.

i think im going to look them both up in the Bible. it always has answers right?

okay. well. pray for me to get through this alive.

iloveyouall.