yes. its true. ive been thinking alot. and i still dont know what im going to do. it was getting better but now. idk. im doubting my ability to do this. im doubting my strength. ive decided im being tested. God is testing me. and i dont like it. i just want to bang my head against a wall. i do NOT get it. CIY mylife was ideal. i lovedddd it. and now i come back and i sworeee school would be different. and i was right. its HARDER. and its not even because of the people at school. the people at my school are idiot. its whats going on in my life. my head and my heart are dissagreing.and its very confusing. last night. impact. was impacting. purity. wow. thats going to be something. but i had to get on my knees and give this to Him. and then i came home and showered and cried and then i went to sleep. and i couldnt sleep. kinda like unfinished business. then all the sudden i started bawling. and i got on my knees again. and im really hoping God will take this from me and//or help me get through this. i love him. accept it or not. and im letting him go. i dont want to but i have to. i fought for 6 and a half months and now in the last month im giving it up. i dont want to do this i dont want to go through this. but i have to do something this pain im going through right now is about to kill me. just pray for me now that youve listened to me complain and babble again.
i stole this from emily and it doesnt apply to this but i love it.
What your mom always said is true. Guys are turned on by what they see. And they don’t have to see a whole lot to reach overload. Even Christian guys. So, think about the unintended message you’re sending by the way you dress and how you act
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