any more i just dont know.

i dont understand. i dont understand how im supposed to move on. how im supposed to go on without him. i dont get it. i DO get that i need to let go. so all of you can stop telling me that. if you want to say that you better be prepared to back it up with some answers. like a] do you even understand what im going through? b] how in the world do i let go of something that is such a great part of me. c] you trying letting go of your BEST friend and the one you love and tell me how easy it is. i know none of you believe the feelings i have but your not me. you dont get it. you have no clue whats going on in my heart, my head, his heart, and his head. dont judge me or yell at me or bark orders till you try it. im so sick of being told "kayla let him go. he isnt worth it. just get over him." YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. its not that easy. i dont even understand how im supposed to do that. God put him in my life for a reason and now hes taken him away. what do i do? i want good advice. if anyone says just do it just move on. i will scream. i get i need to move on but HOW??? ok. next subject.
people who have 2 personalities
i know some people who are goody goody look at me im perfect when adults are around and when they get on the computer or around "comfortable friends" they turn into this monster whos out to destroy every friendship you've worked for. im sorry but if you feel the need to have everyones attention its not possible. sorry hun. and the fact that they think they are perfect and can get whatever they please is annoying. stop complaining. act your age. and get your own friends.
i have a low tolerance for anything lately. seriously.
its homecoming week and my life couldnt be more messed up. i need serious prayer. i need to move on. but it hurts. it hurts alot. all i do it sleep and cry. even at school. it hurts all the time. no matter what. so please just pray for me and leave me alone for a while. i cant handle anymore drama. seriously. im not trying to be mean but i need my space. i need to think this threw and heal. i need alot of help.